Monday, February 12, 2007

What is this strange longing?

I love the music of Vaughan Williams. 'The Lark Ascending' is perhaps the first piece of classical music I ever loved and really recognized. I was passionate about it.

I have since listened to numerous pieces by the man I now consider my favorite composer, but I believe my favorite has become 'Fantasia on a Theme by Thomas Tallis.' (In this YouTube link, the end of the piece is cut off, but the music is still good.) I've put it on my CD player these past few mornings and have listened to it while getting ready for work, curling my hair and applying eyeshadow to the rising and falling of this music that winds through me like breathing.

Every time I hear this piece it fills me with a sense of nameless longing. I'm usually a bit somber after it, making the transition from Vaughan Williams to reading the funnies over breakfast a bit jarring. I rather wish I could keep the thing on repeat in my head all day, somehow keep that sense of yearning with me as I putter about with mundane tasks, mindless computer work and writing insipid emails.

And I wish, I really wish, that I could figure out just exactly what 'Fantasia on a Theme' is making me long for.

2 comments:

Lindsay said...

I LOVE Williams' Thomas Tallis fantasy. It's very beautiful.

I've said it before and I'll say it again: I think we just might be kindred spirits. :)

Joanna said...

Jake has a CD of Celtic folk music, and one song always makes me feel so nastalgic. Jake keeps asking me what I'm nastalgic for, and I can't explain it. It's like the longing for my former life in a Jane Austen or L. M. Montgomery novel, maybe.
I think it's a British Isles folk music thing.